Motherhood

I feel I'm taking motherhood for granted, especially when it comes to Nicole. Too much time goes by without me telling her that I love her, that she's beautiful. All I'm teaching her is how to shout, be angry, negative. Why, now that she is older, do I feel akward around her. How do I change my mothering style to be more nuturing, creative, patient, compassionate. I want my children to grow up to be beautiful in spirit. To know God, and love him, seek him always. I feel I can't teach them because I myself am still learning.

Ying and Yang!

Well, I went to my WW meeting yesterday, and was down another 2.4 lbs! I was shocked. Somewhere along this journey I have learned to make better choices. I hope this lose doesn't leave me completely comfortable about not tracking--that can lead to portion distortion further down the road. I was good and log my breakfast this morning, online.

Ok, here's the YANG.

Marc came and took me for lunch this afternoon, and we went out for Chinese food. When my plate came it was loaded with fried foods. I knew the crab puffs would be fried, but thought the other two items would have some sort of veggies in a sauce. NO, the were fried also. Sure tasted good, but I'm going to pay for it later. So, tonight will be ZERO point veggie soup and a piece of bread. I need to stick to that!

In the future I need to make sure I ask for details on an entree item!!!

Feeling stressed!

My life is so stressful right not- I wish I could just run away and hide! Mom and Kat keep calling seperatley and bitching about one another. If Kat continues to live with them for anonther year or so, I'm going to go nuts. I wish I had the strength to cut them off or tell them how I feel!
Having Shailyn with us has been a stress also. I hate that she always balls her head off if I have to leave the room (just go around the corner into the kitchen)! April 22nd could not come sooner- I can't wait! It'll be so nice to have our bedroom back- and some intimate life for that matter. It's hard to even do the grocery shopping with her here, and not being well stocked on good food is not helping me with staying on track with WW. I have lost 20 lbs- I am so proud of myself, but I feel that I'm slipping off program. I need to start tracking again!!! I want to feel great about myself this summer. I know I won't be anywhere near my final goal, but I for sure don't want to move up.