Motherhood

I feel I'm taking motherhood for granted, especially when it comes to Nicole. Too much time goes by without me telling her that I love her, that she's beautiful. All I'm teaching her is how to shout, be angry, negative. Why, now that she is older, do I feel akward around her. How do I change my mothering style to be more nuturing, creative, patient, compassionate. I want my children to grow up to be beautiful in spirit. To know God, and love him, seek him always. I feel I can't teach them because I myself am still learning.